So, you all know (or maybe you don’t) that I’m having myself a baby in a few weeks. I’m so sure you’ve all been waiting with baited (bated?) breath for baby news on the Are You There Youth front. The only immediate report I have is about more frequent contractions this past week and (TMI!) marginal dilation. Oh, and a possible plan to be induced on the 25th thanks to a pregnancy related pinched nerve in my hip making it difficult for me to walk normally anymore. More important than any silly old labor and delivery, though, is what will happen to my blog once the baby’s born?
For those of you who have kids, you know that the first month, probably the first two months really, you exist in a sphere called “survival mode.” Newborns are fucking hard. And once this babe comes along, I’ll be starting something new in my life: Stay At Home Motherhood. Which I’m both excited and fucking terrified about. Because not only will I have the new one, but my four year old son as well. All day. Every day. Yay? I mean, Yay! (?)
So – the blog. For a while at least, I might not be posting as often. And they might not always be book-related blogs. I’ve already written a couple of general nostalgia blogs that I can bust out and hit publish if too much time goes by. So there’s that. But as far as me having time to sit and read (and take notes) and write a post? Not likely. Book posts that I do manage to get done will likely be shorter than usual. And probably filled with grammatical errors due to extreme fatigue. I’m also ALWAYS accepting volunteers for guest posts.
But, I need you to know that I’m not abandoning the blog.
*clears throat for a moment of earnest seriousness*
In 2006 after my first son was born, I…uh…didn’t handle things so well. Like I said, newborns are hard and I was honestly an emotional fucking wreck. I probably was suffering an undiagnosed case of PPD. Everyone says to relax when you have a new baby and to sleep when the baby sleeps, which is what I tried to do. About a month into new motherhood, my newborn son was sleeping and instead of trying to sleep, I went online. I logged into my Myspace (remember that?) account for the first time in weeks and I reconnected with friends. And I posted to a few groups I was a member of. And you know what? That is what made me feel better than any stupid nap could have. I was bored and lonely and I missed contact with people other than the pediatrician and the clerk at Safeway. The internet gave me that connection.
I started this blog when my son was not quite two years old. This is basically my only creative outlet, and it’s become so important to me. I’ve met and had email conversations with several of you, which is one of the things that I love most about this YA/snark/nostalgia/book community I’ve discovered. A connection with people that I- gasp – have things in common with!
So if weeks go by and you don’t see a new post, please don’t fear. I wouldn’t give this blog up without a little warning. My pet peeve? People who don’t post a goodbye entry when they decide to quit blogging. I swear, I’ll never get too busy to do that, at the very least.
Now. Off to make new life!
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